Today, was expecting to meet him at primary school.. and miracle - he did come after 3 years..
Actually i didn't noticed him, but my friends told me as he was walking in to the school and keep saying that he's my bf.. hahax.. it will be a miracle if he was mine..
It's quite a fun day as i get to meet all my frens back and spend with them talking about the memories during primary school.. I was shocked when my primary 2 teacher still remember me n my name.. what a teacher - good memory.. :)

So did saw him with his usual friend like duhhh..
I dunnoe why - aft yesterday incident, sumthing is like bothering me as in about him..
Oh god please calm myself down..

Yesterday - i get to noe that my "concern" bro msg him and asked him to stop contacting me or flirting with me.. like what the hell?? i tink he dun even like me.. excuse me.. he is just my FRIEND.. that's all.. and now what - i tink we are going to be not that close animore.. just because of this..
Please, i dun want our friendship to ruin just because of this..

U noe what?.. i think i do still have feelings for him..
My goodness if only he know that i really like like him..
Why do i like guys but in the end all falls apart..??
Then meaning what - i wont succedd in relationship..
Guess what - i think i wont give up on this and will never give in to others..

Labels: its killing me slowly..

Aaarrhhh!! what a brother??.. how did he get his no.?? aarrhh!!!...

Then what, said to him that he must stop bothering me n flirting thing wif me?? excuse me.. i noe u r concern but not to this extent rite?? how worse can u be??

Now what, i cannot msg him animore??
Fine, i tink he is more happier if i didnt msg him.. rite??

Aaarrrhh!!! Rabeetah, why must your life be this difficult?? I know its killing you..

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Woohoo.. at last my bro is married.. And the ceremony went smoothly.. Thanx god for making the occasion a special and memorable one..

So as u guys can see that i didnt blog for quite a period as i was so busy preparing for his wedding..

During the wedding, i did performance and dedicate 2 songs for my bro.. AAArrrgghhh!!! I cant sing.. omg.. my voice like what the hell.. hahax.. kwang..kwang..kwang..

Aniwae.. CONGRATS ABANG!!!

HAPPY MARRIAGE..

will post some pictures as soon as i get the photos..

Labels: Selamat pengatin baru.. muackss.. love you..

Early morning, came to school.. i did cry abit as i tink abt wat happened yesterday.. Yesterday was such a painful memory.. Then thru out the day was quite ok..



Phy - 17/25

Chem - 9/25



I get this marks for my combined science.. Pathetic rite.. i noe.. No nid to tell me.. Hahax..



Then, during art when for dentist check - up, the dentist said my teeth is healthy as well as my gums.. She sure or not?? I think she have eye problem, my teeth healthy.. she must be kidding.. What ever it is, i finished the appointment already, so i'm safe.. XD



Then the rest of the day, was normal.. as usual someone is always there to cheer me up and make funny stuff..



Aft school, was suppose to have malay dance training for my bro's wedding performance, but then cancelled bcoz everyone cannot make it - some got tuition, parents, sumthing on..

So waited NOORAISYAH! for abt 1/2 hours.. Then went onto bubble tea..



This is when the fun start, i ACCIDENTALY drank her drink - chocolate koko krunch, Hu ask her go plave the drink infront of my eyes.. So i was day dream, so i just grab the drink bcoz the colour look like my drink.. While drinking - " why the uncle put koko krunch inside my drink while i ask him for chocolate oreo ice - blended?" Then farah said " eh, look like fungus rite.."
In my head, if that is chocolate oreo, then wat i'm drinking??"

By the time aisyah already looked at me, like wat.. sia..

and we did some stupid stuffs like me on the fone wif sumone but at the same time, trying to defend myself from nooraisyah hu trying to ...

Thats all peeps..

Went to watch rush hour with Hilda, Sharifah,Fariz and Farhan at Bugis. The show was so hilarious that i laugh very loud..
Then went to citylink and marina square to watch fireworks.. The fireworks was so late.. We actually planned not to watch but its such a wasted if we didnt watch it as we waited for almost 2 hour..

So while waiting, msging someone who was my long lost crush.. He was there too but sadly we didnt managed to meet up.. He was there with me thru out the night.. Thanx so much..

Went home around 10 plus. heard my father voice so loud.. * tot he was toking to my mum*..
End up step in, my father asked me where i'm from and ask me to bath and pray.. As i was about to do it - he kick my bedroom door and ask me and my mum to leave the house immediately.. What the hell?? So i did left the house and went to some places while my mother stayed at home crying.. I banged the doors everything.. It was just so pain for me to see my parents fighting..

So he was so concern that he even asked me where am i and what i'm doing there? He was pestering me to go back home.. I tell lie to him.. But end up he found out the truth.. So he said that he will come down to accompany me if i still doesn't want to go back home.. So no choice but to go back home, bcoz i dun want to trouble him.. Aniwae thanx so much.. i appreciate it so much..

Went back home, everybody was back home and crying.. The house was dark, and saw my mother slept outside, so i slept outside withe her too as to comfort her.. We were still msging each other, and he keep asking me to sleep and not to think about it animore.. So that for it..

Labels: I still do love them n him

Blablabla.. In the morning saw him at the interchange, who brighten up my day.. but in the end, i took bus 293 wif Razzlyn.. She was hoping that we assemble at the ground which i tink we won't.. hahax.. Yayness.. i win.. I hate sitting at the ground floor.. Then in class. changed seating arrangement.. aaarrrhhhh... why must i be placed behind.. i can't see.. n i dun tink i can concentrate that well..

Labels: i love them more than i love myself and him.. muackss..

Hahax.. its was a fun day for me as common test is over.. That's means one stress is over and now is to wait for the results, which i tink i will not do that well as i heard for chemistry, every single one of us failed.. NIGHTMARE..

I'm surrounded by ppl taking A maths and they are driving me crazy.. esp. this Nooraisyah. So after school, wait for the A maths ppl in the library.. AaaaHHHhhh.. i saw him.. i saw him.. i saw him.. So we head off to bubble tea as usual..AND.. Fatin Adibah just discovered a new game " PASS THE MESSAGE".. its quite lame, but if u know how to play, it will be quite fun.. we were happily passing message to each other.. Credits to Adibah..p.s (maybe we going to continue the game again tmr)

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What the hell??

I dunnoe whether izit me or people around make me feel that... Aaarrggghhh..
Seriously, i'm so pissed off today.. Its seem that everything i did today doesnt seem right.. Aaaarrr.. what wrong wif me today??!!!????!!!!??!!!???!!!

I just felt that people around me are ignoring and maybe they are angry over me.. Dun tell me its bcoz of that stupid incident or stupid whatever.... Aaarrhh.. Why must all this happened to me?? Why must it involve me??? Oh man.. BULLSHIT!!!

What the hell?? I can stop thinking about all this stuffs..

Labels: stop it.. i cant handle this problems anymore

Its so boring.. stayed at home for the whole day..
Eat, watch tv, study, sleep, eat, watch tv, study..............eh no.. watch my nite show first - spongebob squarepants den sleep.. hahax.. see.. boring right..

This is the girl who is so blur, clumsy, silly but i love her so much..

She always don't get what she want..Pity her..

She always cheer up someone day by making stupid stuff XD..

I love her as myself

haiz... my mum n my sis went to Malaysia, then left me, my brothers n dad..
so early morning wake up and did some household chores as there is no one will do if my mum and my sis are not around..

Then in the afternoon, went studying wif aisyah and nora at Bedok 417. Actualli asked hilda to come along but she ask me and other to go on without her first, later then maybe she join us but end up, she cant join us bcoz we went home around 6 plus..Haiz.. today abit clumsy.. My dad gave me money and asked me to take some coins too.. at last i took some coins but forget where i placed my 2 dollar.. such a blur gal.. After that, had to wait for bus 168 which make me wait for it for ages, end up i took 21 and stop at the reservoir( the wrong stop) and took 69 to aisyah's house..

Then study..study..study.. until 5 plus..They figure out a code.." Ra.Ni+3.... blabla.. i dunnoe.." bdk2 takde keje.. Then there was a cute cat.. she relax on my laps, but i dunnoe why, i kept scolding her to keep her claws to herself instead of me and study what i'm studying, chemistry.. hahax.. its sound so ridiculous..Then clever aisyah keeps on disturbing the cat with her pencil, end up she threw her pencil just bcoz the cat tried to catch it.. serve you rite laa sey.. hahax.. Then we went to KFC to eat but aisyah had to went home early.. i dunnoe bcoz of what..

Then, went home.. saw my flat was very dark (nobody at home) haiz.. luckily i brought my precious keys :) Around 9 plus, then my mum and sis ame back home, as usual need to help pick up things.. My eldest bro is such a lazy person, he can even tell me " eh, when ur sis reach home, dun wake me up, even if i'm still awake, pretend that you thought that i sleep" wth..OMG.. he's the one that getting marry, we are the one who are busy about his weddings.. what the hell.. not fair.. He left 14 more days to irritate me..back to the day.. So while waiting for my mum to reach home, my second bro cooked rice and some other foods.. He put PANDAN LEAVES and SUGAR in the rice.. i was like " what the hell are you doing? you cooking ur own rice recipe izit?where on earth got people cook rice put sugar?? if pandan leaves still okay, but sugar?? you must be crazy.." " People never did it, so that the reason why i'm doing it"..said my bro.. i cant say a word anymore to him..

See.. the people that are around me are driving me nuts..First, my family secondly, my sister's bf lastly, my friends.. Day by day, i'm going to become a crazy girl.. But actualli i'm happy wif my life right now, bcoz i hav a cheerful ,outgoing and fun family and friends..
So i tink till here i blog.. it's getting late also.. now is 12.11am haix.. GUD MORNING SATURDAY AND EVERYONE WHO ARE ENJOY ING YOUR SLEEP..XD

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Jalan fikiran membuat ku ragu.....
Tak mungkin ini tetep bertahan.....

Perlahan mimpi terasa mengganggu.....
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Engkau bukan lah segala ku.....
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Usai sudah semua berlalu.....
Biar hujan menghapus jejak mu.....

i don't love you like i did yesterday. My love for you is fading away. I don't want to disturb you and your loved one, so i back out. I hope you can take care of her so much better and love her. But bare this in mind, that the sweet memories that we spent together will always be kept in my heart.. Safely.. For now.. Please go.. Go far away from me.. So that i can say goodbye one last time..

Never the right time for me to say goodbye.. But i must say it..because you gonna hate me.. Its make me cry whenever i think about you.. So i think its better for me to be off now..

Labels: you are not my everything

Oh my goodness, why must we have the rehersal every morning?? waste time u noe.
had art for 4 period, which i managed to finish up my digital art, the parrot.. i got the picture.. woohoo..its turn out to be quite nice, but i'm envy of someone else work which is far too better than mine.. haix...

Now i dunnoe why i dun have the mood to write.. i'm just not in mood..

Maths was a fun period, everyone like.. nvm its a secret btw the class.. hahax.. xD

M.T oh my.. its was a disaster.. i dunnoe how to do my m.t paper.. die..die..die..

till here..

ffuuuhhh.. at last the day is going to end..

morning i nid to wake up at 9 but i wake up at 9.10 because yesterday i just had a performance at 162 which was so tiring as it was held at night.. we took train, while we were in the train we were happily tricked each other.. i'm lazy to wake up but because of force of art that nid to go to the NAFA.. haix.. no choice but to go..

so mit up wif nikesh,ezzati,shaidah n sufiyan at the small mac.. Nikesh was so early bcoz he went out at 9.30, which was when all the 3 of us, the girls were busy doing our own things.. hahax.. poor thing nid to wait for us.. so sorry..

then when reached there, we were loss at first but at last we get our way to the NAFA, which made us happy as we get to enjoy the air-con.. muuaaahhaa.. btw the master piece were so nice and spectacular.. omg.. those guys are so talented.. i'm so so so envy of them.. haix.. but sadly i cant take any pic thru my fone bcoz my fone did some stupid disruption.. so no choice but to take thru my frens fone..

afternoon, we were all hungry and dying to watch a movie at plaza singapura.. so we went there thru mrt.. too bad, sufiyan was left by us bcoz the train just close the door without us knowing aniting but then later we mit him back at city hall..so we went to there to watch movie and fill up our stomach.."disturbance" is the title of the movie.. the movie overrall was ok and thriller.. And sorry my beloved frens, shaidah n nikesh bcoz i shout and keep holding to ur hands but i did it bcoz i was so freaking cold..but end up me and shaidah hold nikesh hands.. end up he was the one who was freezing.. i'm so sorry.. poor thing.. that why you guys will suffer if you guys seat beside me in the cinema.. hahax..but so sorry.. seriously..

so till here right now..
love you guys.. muackss..